Reinvent love.

It’s the nostalgia that’s killing me.

Camp O is giving me the most pressure right now, but it’s also giving me so much motivation to keep going and do my best in everything. I guess this is what my Careers teachers meant by good stress.

It’s always overwhelming when my dad’s here. It’s like I have to hold on tightly to him or else he’ll leave suddenly.

I don’t want to talk about my little problems because when they come out in the open they become concrete and real and get blown out of proportions. Atleast in my head they’ll stay small and insignificant.

Hold your head high, heavy heart.

Holá! I’ve been in 3 countries in the past 24 hours. Expect a long blog/MWIP when I’m not too tired to function.

I’m going to Spain for nine days, leaving for the airport in a while. Tbh, I’d rather go to Philippines but that’s okay. This is just the breather and adventure I need :)

My life is a constant struggle between trying to gain weight and freaking out when people tell me I’m getting fatter.

5 things I want to say to 5 different people:

1. I love you so much. I’d be in a pretty shitty place without you, so thank you for being here with me. I know it’s a long shot, but I know we’re gonna make it.
2. You amaze me. You are so strong, but I need you to know that it’s okay not to be okay sometimes. Don’t hold everything in. I’ll be here despite everything, trust me. 
3. Please please please be happy. It hurts me seeing you so sad all the time. What’s worse is that I can’t be there to comfort you. You’re still my wonderwall and regardless, I consider you my best friend.
4. I miss you. I miss how close we used to be. I miss going to you when I had problems. I miss being a bitch to you and vice versa. That night where I couldn’t sleep cuz I was depressed as fuck and you were there to comfort me was one of the nicest things anyone has ever done for me, so thank you.
5. We were talking about mental problems and depression in school last week and I remembered you. Thank you for helping me during my dark times. I wish everyone who’s going through what I went through has a friend like you. I wish you could see me now; my life is amazing.

If it weren’t for the good things happening in my life right now, I’d be breaking down cuz of homesickness.

Hahahaha this day could not get any worse

Thanks for making me feel absolutely horrible about myself. It’s not like I wanted any of this.

The eternal struggle of trying to make everyone happy including yourself.